Broken-Rejoicing Heart

Wow! Where did April go?? It seems to have come and gone in a flash!

April was a hard month for my family and at the same time a month of rejoicing.
The hard part was a change in my family. Something that seemed to rip my heart out, and at the same time this "ripping" was going on, my son was preparing to ask his girlfriend to marry him. So, I didn't know what to do with my heart that seemed divided by both sadness and joy. Broken and rejoicing at the same time. HOW??

God showed me, yet again, in ways I can understand, that He's got this. My El Roi sees everything that my family is going through, both good and bad,  and is right there with us.

                                                     However,

Satan does not want me to remember this, he wants to cause me to be blinded by the hurt of the bad and stay that way so I can miss the joy of blessing and deliverance.

My youngest daughter and I have been reading "A Wrinkle in Time" together. The chapter we just read was kind of eye opening to me. In this chapter, Meg, the daughter could see her father but he could not see her. He was surrounded by darkness, that "IT" had covered him with. He was just about ready to give up when Meg showed up and gave him the glasses of Mrs. Who and could see again. (there is more detail in the book)

I am not sure if you have read this book or what you think of it, but the "IT" was evil and wanted all to just conform and be happily comfortable and he promised all would be well.  WRONG! "IT" was a liar and a deceiver and a destroyer.  The character of "IT"was portrayed as a huge brain at the center of this world that the main characters found themselves in. This brain was causing people to heed to the lies and false hope. Conformity!! Missing TRUTH!

As I read it, I began to mull it over in my head to explain it to my daughter. I realized that satan loves to work in my thought process, my brain! He tries to place thoughts that are not pleasing to God right in the middle of my thinking. These are not thoughts of lustful or of blatent sinful things, but subtle thoughts of just giving in. Just bask in the sorrow and self pity! NO WAY! 

My God does not want me to focus so much on the painful things that I miss the joy of who I am in Him. He loves me and knows what I am dealing with. HE SEES ME and HE SEES YOU! He knows that satan wants to capture our thoughts and focus and our God knows it is a war. GLORY TO GOD, WE KNOW WHO WINS!!! AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My prayer is that I continue, by God's grace and mercy, to "take every though captive to the LORD",  until the day my Jesus comes for me.

Praying the same for you!

By the way, my son's girlfriend said "YES"!! What a testimony of purity they have!

saying goodbye to April to say hello and welcome to May :)
Hoping you have a wonderful May in our LORD!